Regardless on how I feel, I deserve better. No one should ever be provoked to anger by manner of insolence. Even as I child, I tried my hardest not to annoy my parents. It comes with the territory of being youthful and care-free. I have done my damage. Even when things don't work as they should, I am still blessed. I'm going to focus on that.
I've had plenty of Indian friends growing up. Living here in the U.S., I have come to observe that it has painted a lot of views on how Indians perceive the American Dream. I never would have thought this "stereotype" could enter my mind, but I have never experienced such a distaste for people, who cannot grasp the concept of tact, consideration and humility.
Just note that this statement alone is just on my personal experience. I now vow to never step foot or ever visit India. Just having to deal with people like that is too stressful for me.
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Friday, January 22, 2016
Where do we go when reality kicks in?
It has been an overwhelming New Year. I had always known that the New Year will be full of disasters, but I had never thought it would come rushing in with one fell swoop.
Now unemployed, suffering from depression and insomnia, I'm left to reflect on all the things I could have done to prevent the disasters. Honestly, I had no control of the situation. Most people would tell me that, "Everything will be alright." I would like to hope so. There is this underlying sense of disbelief and melancholy to my plight.
I'm not trying to damper anyone's good mood for the New Year, but the recent deaths from cancer has been rather aggressive these recent years. You would think by now, our advance scientific researches on cures for cancer would have made a great impact on humanity's mortality.
I am by far a scientific genius. I wish I could have been, but I just can't grasp the concept of scientific formulas to save my life. I could be the world's greatest data analyst, but even then, I couldn't qualify since I barely passed the numeric typing test. My average word per minute is at best a 40 or a 45. So much for being a perfectionist. I was young once: didn't care whether or not I made mistakes as long I was the first one to finish a task. After several warnings from my Staff Sergeant to do things right the first time, I had to keep myself at a steady, yet efficient pace for lesser errors to occur in my projects and assignments.
I have always dreamed becoming a famous detective like Sherlock Holmes. Times have change. I have to have at least a Bachelor's Degree and exceptional skills at Computer Fundamental Systems and Administration. After my divorce, I was unable to pay for my classes. I have not been able to come back to finish my semester. I'm left with my Associate's Degree in Computer Network Engineering, which I have yet to fully use at my expense.
I have been out of the Information Technology market for 9 years. No matter how strong my desire is to get my dream job in the IT field, I'm left in tears of disappointment and resentment. In order for me to get where I need to be, I need to show proof of education and qualifications. Without it, I cannot gain the experience. Without the experience, I am rendered incapable and unqualified as a candidate.
Looking for simple jobs have been devastating. Everything has been computerized. There really isn't a way to gauge my work ethics by just selecting 'True' or 'False' in a Career Assessment. In my devastation, I decided to find something that might help me see where I'm lacking in ability to get a job that is right for me.
I went to this website, MAPP, which I happen upon during my Google search. I gave it a try. Here are the results:
Preferences for Lei fully support being perceptually, subconsciously, and consciously aware of fantasy, symbols, symbolic relationships, abstract ideas, options, and choice of options as they relate to creative or innovative activities. Perception triggers ideas in Lei 's mind, a process that just happens - a process often called intuition. It is not a conscious effort to logically "come up with" creative ideas; instead, the process is best identified with the statement that "a thought struck me." A quote by Carl Jung probably makes complete sense to Lei : "Art is innate in the artist, like an instinct that seizes and makes a tool out of the human being. The thing in the final analysis that wills something in him is not he, the personal man, but the aim of the art."
Lei has a strong preference to work under the management or supervision of others who are competent and knowledgeable in their area of expertise. This also may indicate a preference to avoid work of an independent nature (i.e. self-directed, self-planned, self-managed). Performance, morale, energy, enthusiasm, and quality of work tend to reflect how satisfied Lei is with the working environment as created and managed by the motivational and inspirational leadership of a manager, director, supervisor, or lead-person.
Lei 's preferences, more often than not, are motivated by such things as sensing and seeing aesthetics, essence, philosophical and psychological meaning, and effect of color. Lei probably doesn't consider the saying, "Beauty is more than skin deep" as a cliche. Further, Lei considers pattern, texture, and spatial measure: size, shape, distance, dimension, perspective, relationship, etc. with the same regard. This includes abstract dimensions and patterns, graphics, layouts, etc. (NOTE: That higher artistic sense is the source of abstract art, animated films, computer graphics, fractal geometry, new clothing designs and styles, modern architecture, etc.) Lei would probably make a permanent mental note of the quote from Carl Jung, "The artist is essentially the instrument, and he stands below his work, for which reason we should never expect from him an interpretation of his own work. He achieved his highest with his composition."
Lei feels both privilege and responsibility to use communication (including persuasion) to voluntarily provide beneficial information to others. This includes strongly motivated benevolent and literary traits. Self-satisfaction comes almost exclusively from the subjective realization that the information, voluntarily given, has been helpful to other persons. Lei is further motivated to learn and understand the other person(s) needs wishes and listening preferences. Non-persuasive service communication can become persuasive and persistent when expressed in the interest of someone needing Lei to stand up for them.
Lei is well motivated for activity involving craft tools, repetitious activity, recognizable detail, variable physical conditions (temperature, elements, etc.) and minor tangible problem solving. This work is often called manual labor or basic labor to indicate that it can be done with minimum skill, training, instruction, or supervision. It is very often associated with a helper position and role.
High motivational levels in the copy trait means more than laying a paper face down in a copy machine and pushing buttons. It includes: 1) awareness of spatial measure and layout: size, shape, dimension, perspective; 2) artistic ability for factual image reproduction; 3) attention to detail; 4) awareness of machine function and use; and 5) tolerance of or preference for routine. High motivational levels represent an asset for database management, administrative work, warehouse processing, or library activities as well. It is particularly valuable for persons operating printing or copy shops or persons involved in publishing with computers. Lei would most likely prefer activities that include as many of the attributes, mentioned above, as possible.
Lei prefers routine tasks that are explained, demonstrated, and supervised in a familiar environment: Key motivational responsibilities may include dependability, a steady work record, thorough and clean performance, and trustworthiness relative to the property of others. (NOTE: Many maintenance positions are in this category, as are some temporary or seasonal jobs).
Lei 's motivations fully support either natural talents or trained abilities with regard to excellent perception of detail and the ability to accurately create and process records related to that detail. (NOTE: This ability to steadily, consistently, and accurately identify and process detail relies on conscious and particularly subconscious talents). Clearly, preferences for Lei focus on detail related to data and numbers. Occupations requiring this level of motivation and/or natural or trained abilities include: pharmacists, registered nurses, transportation and distribution, switchboard operators, data processors, etc.
Lei has a unique motivation to carefully, thoroughly read simple explanatory or instructional statements (like the directions on the label of a soup can) and fully/accurately know what was said. (NOTE: This is not a widely shared trait. Unless the subject attracts the reader's attention in the first place, reading of elementary instructions is just scanning, and some information is probably overlooked, ignored, or bypassed. Lei should regard this unique asset as vocationally important.)
I am highly impressed and truly humbled by this. I don't know if there is ever a way for me to get my dream job, but at least I know I am an awesome candidate for any job who is willing to hire me for who I am as a person; and what I am capable of as an artist, ambitious worker, well-rounded team player, and an inspirational leader.
Now unemployed, suffering from depression and insomnia, I'm left to reflect on all the things I could have done to prevent the disasters. Honestly, I had no control of the situation. Most people would tell me that, "Everything will be alright." I would like to hope so. There is this underlying sense of disbelief and melancholy to my plight.
I'm not trying to damper anyone's good mood for the New Year, but the recent deaths from cancer has been rather aggressive these recent years. You would think by now, our advance scientific researches on cures for cancer would have made a great impact on humanity's mortality.
I am by far a scientific genius. I wish I could have been, but I just can't grasp the concept of scientific formulas to save my life. I could be the world's greatest data analyst, but even then, I couldn't qualify since I barely passed the numeric typing test. My average word per minute is at best a 40 or a 45. So much for being a perfectionist. I was young once: didn't care whether or not I made mistakes as long I was the first one to finish a task. After several warnings from my Staff Sergeant to do things right the first time, I had to keep myself at a steady, yet efficient pace for lesser errors to occur in my projects and assignments.
I have always dreamed becoming a famous detective like Sherlock Holmes. Times have change. I have to have at least a Bachelor's Degree and exceptional skills at Computer Fundamental Systems and Administration. After my divorce, I was unable to pay for my classes. I have not been able to come back to finish my semester. I'm left with my Associate's Degree in Computer Network Engineering, which I have yet to fully use at my expense.
I have been out of the Information Technology market for 9 years. No matter how strong my desire is to get my dream job in the IT field, I'm left in tears of disappointment and resentment. In order for me to get where I need to be, I need to show proof of education and qualifications. Without it, I cannot gain the experience. Without the experience, I am rendered incapable and unqualified as a candidate.
Looking for simple jobs have been devastating. Everything has been computerized. There really isn't a way to gauge my work ethics by just selecting 'True' or 'False' in a Career Assessment. In my devastation, I decided to find something that might help me see where I'm lacking in ability to get a job that is right for me.
I went to this website, MAPP, which I happen upon during my Google search. I gave it a try. Here are the results:
Preferences for Lei fully support being perceptually, subconsciously, and consciously aware of fantasy, symbols, symbolic relationships, abstract ideas, options, and choice of options as they relate to creative or innovative activities. Perception triggers ideas in Lei 's mind, a process that just happens - a process often called intuition. It is not a conscious effort to logically "come up with" creative ideas; instead, the process is best identified with the statement that "a thought struck me." A quote by Carl Jung probably makes complete sense to Lei : "Art is innate in the artist, like an instinct that seizes and makes a tool out of the human being. The thing in the final analysis that wills something in him is not he, the personal man, but the aim of the art."
Lei has a strong preference to work under the management or supervision of others who are competent and knowledgeable in their area of expertise. This also may indicate a preference to avoid work of an independent nature (i.e. self-directed, self-planned, self-managed). Performance, morale, energy, enthusiasm, and quality of work tend to reflect how satisfied Lei is with the working environment as created and managed by the motivational and inspirational leadership of a manager, director, supervisor, or lead-person.
Lei 's preferences, more often than not, are motivated by such things as sensing and seeing aesthetics, essence, philosophical and psychological meaning, and effect of color. Lei probably doesn't consider the saying, "Beauty is more than skin deep" as a cliche. Further, Lei considers pattern, texture, and spatial measure: size, shape, distance, dimension, perspective, relationship, etc. with the same regard. This includes abstract dimensions and patterns, graphics, layouts, etc. (NOTE: That higher artistic sense is the source of abstract art, animated films, computer graphics, fractal geometry, new clothing designs and styles, modern architecture, etc.) Lei would probably make a permanent mental note of the quote from Carl Jung, "The artist is essentially the instrument, and he stands below his work, for which reason we should never expect from him an interpretation of his own work. He achieved his highest with his composition."
Lei feels both privilege and responsibility to use communication (including persuasion) to voluntarily provide beneficial information to others. This includes strongly motivated benevolent and literary traits. Self-satisfaction comes almost exclusively from the subjective realization that the information, voluntarily given, has been helpful to other persons. Lei is further motivated to learn and understand the other person(s) needs wishes and listening preferences. Non-persuasive service communication can become persuasive and persistent when expressed in the interest of someone needing Lei to stand up for them.
Lei is well motivated for activity involving craft tools, repetitious activity, recognizable detail, variable physical conditions (temperature, elements, etc.) and minor tangible problem solving. This work is often called manual labor or basic labor to indicate that it can be done with minimum skill, training, instruction, or supervision. It is very often associated with a helper position and role.
High motivational levels in the copy trait means more than laying a paper face down in a copy machine and pushing buttons. It includes: 1) awareness of spatial measure and layout: size, shape, dimension, perspective; 2) artistic ability for factual image reproduction; 3) attention to detail; 4) awareness of machine function and use; and 5) tolerance of or preference for routine. High motivational levels represent an asset for database management, administrative work, warehouse processing, or library activities as well. It is particularly valuable for persons operating printing or copy shops or persons involved in publishing with computers. Lei would most likely prefer activities that include as many of the attributes, mentioned above, as possible.
Lei prefers routine tasks that are explained, demonstrated, and supervised in a familiar environment: Key motivational responsibilities may include dependability, a steady work record, thorough and clean performance, and trustworthiness relative to the property of others. (NOTE: Many maintenance positions are in this category, as are some temporary or seasonal jobs).
Lei 's motivations fully support either natural talents or trained abilities with regard to excellent perception of detail and the ability to accurately create and process records related to that detail. (NOTE: This ability to steadily, consistently, and accurately identify and process detail relies on conscious and particularly subconscious talents). Clearly, preferences for Lei focus on detail related to data and numbers. Occupations requiring this level of motivation and/or natural or trained abilities include: pharmacists, registered nurses, transportation and distribution, switchboard operators, data processors, etc.
Lei has a unique motivation to carefully, thoroughly read simple explanatory or instructional statements (like the directions on the label of a soup can) and fully/accurately know what was said. (NOTE: This is not a widely shared trait. Unless the subject attracts the reader's attention in the first place, reading of elementary instructions is just scanning, and some information is probably overlooked, ignored, or bypassed. Lei should regard this unique asset as vocationally important.)
I am highly impressed and truly humbled by this. I don't know if there is ever a way for me to get my dream job, but at least I know I am an awesome candidate for any job who is willing to hire me for who I am as a person; and what I am capable of as an artist, ambitious worker, well-rounded team player, and an inspirational leader.
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