"I am good at what I do. I know better when to take a hit and when not to. It's just what God would expect from me; considering I am His child."
I am thankful for all the things God has given me. Even more so now; because my mother and I are in good terms. I'm also thankful for the lessons I've learned throughout my livelihood. Boy, what a journey it was. As it stands now, it will take my little one to get used to the unexpected change.
I'm confident in what I do most of the time. There are moments when I tend to over think certain aspects of a situation. It would take a logical person to make me realize my mistake. I've taken a lot of challenges in my life. The only thing I'm still learning to master is disassociating my altruism for asceticism. If I do not balance these personality traits, I am unable to function properly in public; let alone with my own family and friends.
The difference between "assumption" and "presumption" is their level of certainty. Most people know that the assumption of a given state by an uninformed guess is usually dubious; where as the presumption of a certain state by an informed guess based on reasonable evidence is mostly true. It's truly unnerving whenever I become the recipient of being portrayed as a perceived character based on the assumption of another person's notion. It's not everyday I get a chance to speak my mind in regards to the gamut of my personal inclination towards others.
If I had the ability to express myself without any consideration or regard of the other person's disposition, I would not be here. I would cease to exist. Believe it or not, the military had ingrained an apathetic mindset throughout my training. Let me elaborate: If any one of us within our squadron were to lift a finger in setting off emotional outbursts, our team will die; if not so, then the military operation will fail.
I have learned a lot of coping and survival mechanisms while I was in the military. The best part of it was the opportunity it provided. Especially being enlisted in the Air Force. You could be any body: Fire fighter, Chef, Musician, Editor, Librarian, Automobile Mechanic, Journalist, Electrician or even a Janitor; just to list a few. Apart from the offered skill sets aforementioned, they have self-help programs such as anger management, time management, communication and business relation courses; as well as public speaking courses.
I always want to learn new things. Even if I have a penchant for technological hardware, I will always accept a challenge whenever the opportunity presents itself. Considering where that market has gone, I am considered an obsolete resource. If I wanted to open my own computer repair shop or maybe build my own robot, I neither have the skills or the resources to run my own business.
I did not regret my decision when I took up Information Systems and Technology as my college major. Since I am currently left with fewer resources, my dream job to be a Certified Network Security Specialist for the Federal Bureau of Investigations has been put aside.
I know my limitations. Despite such impediments, I will always try my hardest rendering it to the best of my ability. Even when I exceed my expectations, I am appreciative of my newfound capabilities. Unfortunately, the reality of the inevitable limitations surface through such accomplishments. Even rubber bands break when it exceeds its usual or intended size and purpose.
The important lesson I've learned from my parents was that I have to learn with grace. The same Grace God has given Mankind when He created them. Grace is the willingness to acknowledge one's own ability or lack thereof in order to be favored by another. It is also becoming aware of accepting defeat for what its worth and to walk away without causing negative affect on others.
So for what its [this blog] worth, I am hoping I am still able to express myself freely without causing distress to anyone else; including myself. With that being said, I shall continue my journey regardless where my life endeavors take me or wherever God leads me to.
